Sometimes you want something so badly that a deep longing is felt inside of you. Whatever it is you want in your life - a fresh start, true love, success - put all of your efforts towards achieving that goal. You are the only one in your own way. No one can get between you and your dreams except for you.
My suggestion? Invest in a brand new journal. Write down everything you wish, you want, you dream... write it all down. Read it back to yourself. See it as present in your current life. Repeat often.